Not everything goes as planned

I was trying for a good weight watchers day until a coworker came in and said, "Jessica, there's a giant dog here to see you." The giant dog was with one of the vendors I work with and brought me some delicious cookies...which I went ahead and ate three of.
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Note to Self

It's not a good idea to eat a Schlotzsky's Original sandwich for lunch just because it was offered at a meeting let alone eat two, one for lunch and one for dinner, because there were some leftover.

P.S. One small sandwich is worth 15 Weight Watchers  points (out of my daily 29).

Maybe I do need kids

I got a Happy Meal (with fries, not apple wedged) for dinner...just because the toy is a Sanrio watch.
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Thanksgiving Lunch

Thanksgiving lunch at work. Enough said.
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Houston

I went to Houston and back today for work. After getting home late and starving I find Bobby's Cheddar Fries in the cabinet and chow down. Nasty.
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Home Alone

with sugar cookies "thanks" to Bobby.
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Girls' Night

Yes, I know I need to recycle and it's gross to take pictures of your trash, but I thought it demonstrated the aftermath of girls' night tonight: Halloween candy, popcorn, wine, cookies (I stuck with the candy and popcorn), and pretending that I can eat whatever I want...oh yeah, and Michael Jackson's "This is It."
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"Fun" Size

Eating more than one fun sized Twix bars left over from Halloween is not so fun...especially when you just started back on Weight Watchers.
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Who can resist pumpkin anything?

I only intended on eating half of the lovely piece of pumpkin cheesecake but ate a bit more than that. It didn't feel so bad at first and then I just felt nasty in that too much sugar kind of way. But it was from Whole Foods, it must have been healthy, right? I'm going on a bike ride, grr.
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Should have stuck with my carrots

I bring my lunch to work every day and it usually consists of a sandwich, carrots, and fruit. Today I had Sun Chips that we had at work instead of carrots. I feel so gross now and not in the mood to work. This is why I need to just stay away from our office snack bin.
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Peanut Butter Payback

My stomach hates me right now. Could it be that I fed it two peanut butter & honey sandwiches plus a snack pack of trail mix that included peanuts and peanut butter chips?
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One Year Food Regret-iversary

After posting for the first time in months on this blog I realized that this day marks one year since my very first Food Regrets post.  Weird.  I thought it would be appropriate to re-post my first Food Regrets blog entry here.

 I don't have many or really any regrets in life because I feel like all of my choices and experiences have led me to where I am now, but I do have many "food regrets." This happens when either I eat too much of something or when something sounds good one second but I later regret eating it. I feel like I have more food regrets than most.

I started this blog first because I thought it was kind of funny but then later realized it's a way for me to be honest with myself in documenting them and in turn hopefully curbing them because regret just makes you feel bad!

I try not to obsess about eating, counting calories, etc. but I feel better when I eat better. Not to mention since living in Texas I've had some weight struggles and lately I have been trying to take more control over them. I've made lots of progress and I try to be proud of that, but these "food regret" moments can be rough. I don't want this blog to make me get down on myself, but to help me make myself more aware of them and maybe if someone else sees them they'll even be able to relate. I will never cut out a food that I love; I'm just trying to learn moderation. Sometimes circumstances, stress or emotions kind of stand in the way and lead to these "regrets."

In case you're interested in where my need to try to address all this comes from... here's an overview of my weight struggles over the past eight years.

• Leave an active job in Missouri to work a desk job in Texas. Never worried about diet and exercise before, youth and the active job just kept me thin.
• Pounds start adding up the longer I get into my desk job and change nothing else about my diet or exercise.
• I finally get diagnosed with endometriosis. The doctor plays around with different drugs, I have two surgeries, and then start Lupron injections which put my body through temporary menopause (and made me balloon up even more). By this time I've put on probably 20 or 25 pounds. Considering my small stature, that is A LOT!!!
• Days after one of my surgeries I go to my 10 year high school reunion. TWO people mistake me for being pregnant, one being a former male classmate who puts his hand on my stomach and says, "Someone looks awfully pregnant!" Who knows how many more thought it but just didn't say anything.
• I visit Susan in Dallas. We go get our nails done. Girl doing my nails asks, "How long ago did you have the baby, or are you about to have it?"
• My former love for shopping for clothes stops. Now it's all about trying to find things that will hide my belly.
• I get off Lupron plus start exercising and making changes to diet. Pounds slowly start coming off.
• I find workout buddies, start taking group classes, and make more changes to diet. More pounds come off.
• I get dumped by a serious boyfriend. More pounds come off and I'm starting to recognize my old self again.
• A little more than seven years after moving to Texas and I decide I need to take even more control and I start WeightWatchers online after hearing about two friends' success stories.
• Since starting Weight Watchers I've lost about 10 more pounds with a goal of about 5 or so more to go. It's hard to stay motivated sometimes after hitting your first goal, hence food regrets.

Thinking back on all of this is kind of painful. I get mad at myself for letting it get so out of control, but have forgiven myself. The Food Regrets blog will hopefully be a good way for me to stay accountable to myself.

I'm Back...

and full of regret. Food regrets that is. No excuses, but here's the deal-Bobby and I ran Bingo at a fall festival today. Despite planning ahead by bringing a pb&h(oney) sandwich, which I ate, I got hungry and ate festival food-a hot dog and a slice of pizza. Okay fine...but instead of going to the grocery store like I desperately need to do, I got Vietnamese carry-out for dinner. I feel like the now defunct cartoon Cathy, "Ack!". My latest thing is hitting my goal weight by my 35th birthday. This goal weight date has been pushed up several times. No more! 35 is a big number and I'm ready. So I'm back reporting my food regrets to keep myself in check!
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I see a pattern here

My last entry was from a three day weekend.  Well guess what, it's the day after a three day weekend and I'm trying to get out of staycation mode and I have a major food regret. 

I was starving after running some errands after work and excited to get home for a little me time since the significant other is at work tonight.  Me time tonight means some TV watching like Tori & Dean, Nine by Design, and last night's Bachelorette (all while doing dishes, laundry, dusting, and magazine reading.  I have trouble just sitting and watching TV).   With nothing at home that sounded all that great I went to Torchy's Tacos.  I was stuffed after one but had bought two so I went for it even though I knew this would happen: I'd feel disgusting and have complete food regret.  Sigh.

Tomorrow's a new day, right?

Three Day Weekend

Yes I ate a cupcake from one of my favorite bakeries, ate fries and half a burger, and yes I had pasta; but I have to pat myself on the back for my "good behavior" this three day weekend.  Positive reinforcement for the good things, right?

I kept busy reading, cleaning out drawers, running errands, and seeing a few friends.
I worked out twice thanks to Jillian Michael's DVD, "30 Day Shred."

I am going to try to keep up this pattern through the week plus do a little better job on what I eat.  Tilapia and chicken are waiting for me in the freezer.

100 Calorie Bag of Cookies + Bad Mood = Food Regret

I'm trying to pay attention to what triggers my overeating which seems to be worse now since Christmas.  Tonight it seemed to be based around my mood.  I was in a very bad mood late this afternoon and early this evening.  I had a headache thanks to carpet glue fumes in my office not to mention  attempting to work while our entire office is being renovated.  This is a headache in itself- packing up one day just to unpack a few days later. Nothing makes me grumpy like a headache that refuses to go away. So my mood just got worse after forgetting something at work and having to turn back around and grocery shopping while it was raining.  After dinner I had one bag of 100 calorie chocolate chip cookies but still wanted another bag along with a cup of tea.  I don't physically feel all that terrible from it but the guilt is what weights me down.  It gets tiring battling with myself.

Girls' Night+The Bachelor=Food Regrets

I watched The Bachelor tonight with a group of girlfriends and had a blast making fun of the show and saying things that will probably send me to hell.  No pizza ended up being involved but...a pinata, yes, a pinata full of candy and a bottle of wine was involved.  It's usually really easy for me to pass on alcohol because the calories just aren't worth it to me but it just seems appropriate when watching a cheesy girly show.  And the candy...well Rolos and "fun sized" Snickers are just too hard to pass up!  And they're tiny...right?  But one Rolos turned into three plus one fun sized Snickers.  Before you know it I am way beyond my points for the day.  Not a good way to start off the week.  Perhaps this will motivate me to try to earn "Activity Points" to make up for it somewhat.  Now if I could just figure out this whole motivation in the winter thing.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!  Happy resolution time!  I originally created this blog to help hold myself accountable diet-wise and I've been completely neglecting it.  The last time I wrote in early December I had a gained a couple of pounds.  I weighed myself when I returned to work after the New Year and I had dropped those couple of pounds.  This week I'm back up again.  Anyway, I seem to be fluctuating back and forth between a couple of pounds and I'm ready to just hit my final goal weight!

First things first, let me confess my latest food regret...sugar cookies yesterday.  I was doing well on Sunday after a big dinner out to a French restaurant with friends Saturday night until Bobby bought a box of sugar cookies.  I told him to just let me eat one...well that one turned into two and then later when I should have been eating dinner it turned into three.  Ugh.

New year, new start...right?  Easier said than done as most of you know.  Every time I say I'm starting over I'm faced with a challenge  (like an invitation to go out to eat, a boyfriend who eats poorly, boredom, sweet tooth, etc.)...and lately I feel weak.  I have to give myself credit today for passing up a free Chuy's Tex-Mex lunch.  (The main reason knowing I'll be watching The Bachelor tonight with friends and a pizza might be involved.)

So here are some Food Regret resolutions for 2010:

• Don't beat myself up when I do indulge but don't let it happen more often than not.
• Become more active again.  I blame winter but I know I have to take ownership of this.  It not only means getting more exercise but just being more active in general to give me more to do than think about food!  One way I'll do this is by taking a sewing class and then practicing at home.  I will read more.  I will save up to get a Wii and use utilize the physical aspects of it like yoga. 
• Practice cooking new recipes.  I need more go-to quick dishes and also hope to encourage better eating habits in the significant other.  I really enjoyed making my first big Christmas dinner and it demonstrated that maybe I can really learn how to cook.
• Be semi-comfortable in a bikini this summer.  I would say this is a lofty goal but I'm not getting any younger and now is this time.

So to help reach all these goals I will do my best to keep up with this blog!  Good luck to everyone else out there facing the same challenges and goals!